She Said YES!!!

You couldn't tell by my outwardly stoic presence but the anxiety odometer was going haywire inside of me. I was as nervous as a cat and couldn't get my heart to stop beating so wildly if my life depended on it. 


So why was I nervous? Why the anxiety? I can't really answer that. Maybe it was a culmination of things. With me going back to Kingsville and seeing the new church for the first time 

coupled with the very first time I would actually get to sit and relax worry free of the time constraints put on me by the halfway house. Then there was that other thing I was anticipating. 
With all that was going on, meeting my new favorite aunt Jo, seeing Granny and Grandpa's place after so much time away, and hanging out with Pam knowing what I was about to do. 
Let me back this story up to about 3 years ago. I was sitting at a table (of course I was eating) and in walked a woman that not only turned my head but transformed my heart. She rounded the kitchen wall and our eyes met, forever impacting me from that moment forward. You could have asked me anything and I wouldn't have given you a straight answer. I was a bumbling fool in every sense of the word. It was a welcome aid when Granny said my name because I couldn't, for the life of me, think what it was. 


We talked about her mission to India and I think I was coherent enough to spit out, "You mean over there was like prehistoric stuff?" Later, on the way home I was slapping my forehead with the palm of my hand and repeating: "Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!" Really, "pre-historic?" I don't remember anything else of that conversation but I'll never forget those captivating eyes.

I thought it fitting that I should propose to that same beautiful woman in the very spot I laid eyes on her for the first time. I'd planned it since the day I knew I was going to marry her. It was there that I knew I should ask her to partner with me in the advancement of the Gospel. Because, after all, Beki and I are a lot stronger for Jesus together than we could ever be apart from one another. That's why I'm blessed to have her say yes. To know that she'd journey through the rest of her life next to me is pure joy. 

I hate to spoil a good movie plot but I was overjoyed when she said the most beautiful word I have ever heard......."YES!"