Hold on to what you have

What do I have right now? Not much. I mean, I know in this life we're not supposed to hold on to our "stuff" not store up treasures as Jesus tells us. But I'm looking at the things I do have (tangibly) and to be honest I don't have, like my dad says, even a pot to pee in. I drive an old beater truck that leaks gasoline. I have an old pair of work boots busting at the seams. I live in my parents back room and I am typing on a borrowed computer. By the time I pay the halfway house their cut of my paycheck and put the gas in my truck that has somehow leaked out I don't have but a few bucks.
Nope. I don't have much by way of "treasure."
I list all that I have (tangibly) and I'm not shocked the list is small.
What do I have though that means something?
Does the car I drive determine my self-worth? Nope.
Does my bank account prove what kind of man I am? Nope.
Does the clothes I wear make me more of a success? Nope.
Then I guess I shouldn't put much stock into asking what I have tangibly. Instead I should consider all the things I have that mean something.
Like Love.
I have love. I have a beautiful wife that adores me to no end. That's worth more than any treasure of gold.
I have family. They love me unconditionally and will never leave my side. (Evidenced by their continual support even in the times of my wayward lifestyle).
I have Jesus. This is the trump card. Nothing means nothing without Him.
I have my Church. I know that if everything goes south, if all is lost I can crawl to the front doors of K.B. and have a place to get me back on my feet.
What all this means is, is that I have something. I really do. And it helps to read it; put it on paper and be able to thank God for it. But I have something else that is a bit personal and is somewhat a private treasure: my honesty and my testimony.
If I have to count what counts it would be the integrity of a person. I have been called a lot of things and right now I have a federal system saying I'm one of the worst society has to offer. So it is important to me and for me to be honest and live a life of integrity.
Why?
Because in the end people look at that more than anything else. When they question that it means they question you as a person.
In a world where I have to gain back everything I've lost it is assuring to know I haven't lost the love of my Savior firstly. Secondly it is important that I do not, as the Psalmist wrote, "Walk in the counsel of the wicked, Stand in  the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers."